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Monday, 22 November 2010
holidays have been boring . nth to do . maybe i shld study ? nahhhhhhh. im sick . stayed up all night long , nt to party but to vommit -.-'' i cnt even drink water, took a jap at the clinic nw all i can consume is glucose water for 2 freaking days ! :( as u can see my blog structure is ruined , i tried to do it oin my own n its all wrong nw . somebody help. haaha . idk what else to say , tc chow !
1:43 pm
Friday, 12 November 2010
Hey , Let me get straight to the point , 11/11/2010 was the worst day so far this semester for me . I sinned . Against My Own Best Friend . I cnt believe i said those things . Its simply unforgivable. No friend would have said what i had said. I when too far . I totally suck . She was there when all my other friends walked out, she was there when i was down and she was there even when i was happy and cheerful. Which guy in the right mind would have done what i did that night . For crying out loud , she only wanted to help . I'm sucha Bastard . I was rude, told her off. Fuck what was i thinking . I should go jump in a lake right now. I know no matter how much i try , things between us will never be the same again and will never be better . All i cared about was about my own feelings , how the fuck can i forget that she has feelings too ?! T.T My ego sucks . I cant see the good things in life and cant appreciate small things . I bet she'll never forget what i said, bet she hates me ryte now . And I cnt blame her . I cnt believe i just lost my bestest friend . Im just a fucking fake . T.T FML . Im down right sorry friend . Totally love ya as my friend and i'll always regret what i said . cnt believe i hurt your heart and feelings . SLAP ME when you see me . :( I'll do anything in my power or in the world to make it up to her . Please Logan You Bitch, Change yourself for the better !!! T.T
10:20 pm
Wednesday, 10 November 2010
Hey , School's gonna end soon and i'm looking forward to it . I'm gonna sleep all day long and disturb no one during the holidays . Not gonna text much , or call anyone A lot . Gonna keep to myself and work towards a better mind set cause i cnt stand it anymore . Trying to forget the word love too . God damn it . Hate it . Your love for him grows stronger while i become mentally weak everytime .Gosh . Maybe i just gotta get a new hobby ! Joggin anyone ? plan to lose about 10-15 kilos by my next birthday . Gotta tone ma bodd too . Will be hittin the gym often . Anyone working out, joggin pls pls pls tag me along . I wanna be fit again. Miss the old days where i can hit 13-14 secs for 100m . Tht was wayy back in sec 1. Now i'm almst 17 . Just imagine if i were Fit ! Dad's gonna get me a new hp soon . Woohoo . Its been a long time that i have been usin the temp China phone after my hp died at sea -.-'' . Also gonna get myself the new dark pink street soccer shoes . Then i'll be the eye of the court babe ! 12 Nov is judgement day for ELC . Hope everything goes smoothly . Been selected for the soccer school team , woohoo ! Cant decide whether to take jersey number 7 ? or 9 which is worn by Fernando Torres . El nino ! My idol . Got class camp on the 21st of dec. So afraid tht i cnt attend it :X Well thts tht. Nothing really to look forward to . Boring . Chow guys .Labels: i like the way MY LIFE SUCKS .
9:06 pm
Monday, 8 November 2010
 HELLO LOGAN!
Sorry I login to your blog without permission. Ha-ha. Basically I'm here just to say THANK YOU for the long awaited Kinder Beuno. Big yeay, I LOVE IT:) Surprising huh see me here.
So since Logan has been good to me lets post good things about him. Logan is Amazing of cause all my best-friends are amazing maaaaaaah. Seriously. He's not cool cause I am cool not him! And obviously he is taller than me. But he's scared of me(I hope) Haha. And I just remembered, I only knew Logan exist this year. -.-" Btw, everyone had good time celebrating Deepavali at his place, thanks for inviting. And my first time celebrating Deepavali y'know:)
Btw, Logan don't emo emo like your previous post laaaaaaaaaaaaa. Emo is not you! Cheer up and be strong. And don't make your blog dead again.
BYEBYE:)
1:52 pm
Had a decent day , gained another $30 bucks today frm festive collections ! Haha , met cousins, had a decent time . Nothing really gives my life any real big thing to enjoy about . Boring and simple . Love hurts , seriously guys , it does . Knwing you cant get the girl of your dreams, watching her love for her lucky man , showing her love for him strongly , we wish and ask god, why isnt he me ? It really effects the heart negatively . Very very uneasy feeling . Sleepless nights . Sometimes tears roll down, but deep down you know its almost impossible . I may sound emo emo but its really a painfull feeling . I beg myself at times to forget her , but when i see her face , i'm in awe , in awe of god's sweetest creation, carved to perfect . Pretty, sexy and a voice that makes chills run down your spine everytime you hear it . Im crazy over yous gurl , crazy , But you love him . T.T My life sucks really .Labels: Say i dont wanna be in love2
12:27 am
Sunday, 7 November 2010
Hey guys,(no one actually visits my blog,I pretend they do) how you'doin ? Im gonna be active in blogspot from now on,hopefully. As you can see, ma blogskin has been changed, finally thanks too iznie, :) Been months beggin peeps to help me change it.
Life has been normal. No big ups or downs so far. Just celebrated Diwali yest and invited close pals for open house. Had a decent time socialisin with them and caught up with a few old pals too. Hope everyone had a decent time, Hopefully everyone :( Friends left around, nearly 9pm. Played blackjack with relatives and dad's friends . Hahah, i felt like some rich dude seriously, me in my leather coat, cuban cigars beside me and a 24 yr old chivas regal right infront of me, playin blackjack, God damn ! Haha, made about 20 bucks. Sisters friends also joined the game, met this guy called Wan antonio, he's columbian. He is 24 yrs old ..studying here . He was tellin us about the columbian mafiaa..that they're not as strong as before, very weak. Also spoke about drugs there . Hahaha, he also sang as columbian songs n my was he good. He also knws a great deal abt football ! Haha. Pleasure to have met him. Gt a text frm ma lil sis tht herself n ma budd shaff were freaked out by some teenagers on their way home on the bus, they were kinda disturbed and irriated by those freaks. Losers shld knw better than too prey on young girls .Felt guilty i didnt send them home as it was already late and i was their host for the day . Thank god there're alright .Then celebrated dad's birthday, same day as deepavali . Great time really . Went to bed around 3am, ended sleepin at nearly 5 cause the party, to the rest of them, had only begun ! Hahaha, the hall became a dancefloor ! Haha. Anyw still gt a lot of diwali vistin to do for rest of the month. Hope to get more $$$. Hahaha.
Well the only bad thing is that theres still 5 days of extended curriculum -__________-'' hate it seriously . At least tuesday maybe gonna watch paranormal activity 2 with usual movie budds, Khair,Shaf,Zahra,Ayie and this time, joined by Aiting . :) Thinkin of Shaf and Zahra, i owe them things ! Haha . Owe Zahra a magnum, Crunch for shafiqah and a Kinda Bueno for Ratnah the coolkid . Hehehe ( Ratnah's nt tht cool anyws ) Lol. Hope school ends soon cause ma mind is sooo not into studying right now. I'm all holiday now ! Soccer Trainings still continue with a pre season tournament coming up in less than a month . ELC problems will resolve this 12th nov, where the entire club will come together to discuss the ''problem''. Hopefully its in my favour. Or else i'll have to look for a new club, i've had offers already anyws. But i want to remain at the club i have come to love, lets see how it goes...
Well, from now on, i think i gotta change myself. I think i've got no enemies, well i think i dnt, but i just gotta change myself, for the better . Seriously gotta lose weight, visit the gym and jog often ! Become my old physically fit self ! And At least be everyone's good friend as Love, isnt ma thing . All the people i have loved ever since i broke of with ma ex Nur Sabrina back in 2007, ald are in a relationship. Why ? Why must i love you ? Millions of girls out there, why you ? Maybe cause you're one in a million to me , but im just one of those million guys out there too you . As long you're happy with your boyfriend, I would say im happy for you but im not . This feeling, its like i'd do anything for ya girl. Your special, normal's boring . But i knw, i'll never be tht guy you'd wanna hear or be with all the time, im just yo friend . Im jealous of your boyfriend girl, down right jealous. God gave hym his sweetest and prettiest creation to hym and let me watch you together upclose . Thts the worst punishment, sometimes i'd wish i nvr knew you. Everytime i see ya girl,i go gaga over yous. I'd do anything . Just be happy with hym all ayte ? Well thts all bla bla..etc etc. I'knw i aint gonna be yours , might as well enjoy the simple moments with you as your friend . :(
Enough crappin abt me, sorry guys if i'd bored you to death, just needed to let it out . Take care and Please tag on ya wayy out homies. Thanks a million . ;)Labels: Trying to look at the postives of ma life . :(
3:25 am
Sunday, 17 October 2010
Hey Guys ! Miss me ? Hahaa. Finally Remembered about ma blog. Its seems TOTALLY dead. Not a single vistor and update in almost 2 months. Well, what do i say now ? End of year exams are over ! God please !, i tried my best, well not really, haha, but pls ! let me get promoted to sec4 express next year ! I know i can pass english, science and f&n. im doubtful of my combine humanes and tamil but i surely flunked my math. :( pls , let me move forward in my life. Had M7 outing recently and it wasnt half bad. Gonna have a chalet with them in the future ! tht'll be awesome ! ELC chalet too ! Not forgettin ELC matches ! With a new manager and new strike partners, there will be compettiton for first team places. Also cnt wait for our new jerseys. :) Wish all my classmates, especially those from dear M7, best of luck for their results. To My Ex-classmates, all the best for your Olvls ! Meet you guys in your second year babes ! Take care dear fellow bloggers, and oh btw, keep the taggs flowin in ! Haaha (;
Logan Gonzalez
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